There have been many times I have failed this semester, especially outside of this class. In my Comparative Politics class, I procrastinated on studying, rarely went to discussion sections, and when I realized that I needed to make a change I was already a little over a month in. I began studying, paying attention to lectures, however, I failed my first exam. I took a different apporach, looked up tips on how to study, tried not to procrastinate, even though I found myself falling back into those old habits, and I still ended up failing my midterm, however, with a much higher grade than the first exam. I had to drop the class, because I didn't want to ruin my GPA.
From this moment, I realized that I failed forward. I realized that it took me failing to realize that there was a problem within me I needed to fix, and that when I tried to change, although I didn't get the end result I wanted, I saw the progress that can and will be made from change.
I think failure, if done right, can be very beneficial. It is so easy to get caught up in stressing and thinking you are a failure, however, if you fail forward in anything you do, it can eventually lead to success. I was stressing, because I didn't want to fail. I wanted to be the best of the best even when I wasn't doing what was necessary to accomplish it. But I realized that every failure you have control over in the end. You have the control to change, to realize your mistakes, and you have the power to look at it as a stepping stone and not a hinderance in your future endeavors. Along with life, this class has taught me that there are so many different aspects that will challenge you, and that you won't always succeed at. The business world is a key example of failing forward. One failure can lead to the creation of a masterful innovation. Because of this class, I am more willing to risk it all, for a better end result regardless of the failures that may follow, as long as I learn from them.
Thanks for sharing with us all this story of your own that I believe must have been extremely hard on your part to share with us especially just for the sake of this one assignment, but we've also all been there plenty of times with regards to procrastination and still get ourselves into it these days. Hopefully you get to ace that same class if you do decide to take it again next semester, now that you know exactly why you could't do well on it the first time.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your experience. I can relate to your circumstance because my post was very similar to yours where procrastination had got the best of me. This is because old habits seem to come back to light once we get to comfortable with doing these habits little by little. I am glad that you have acknowledge this as a failure and hopefully next semester will work out in your favor.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story with us. I can relate a lot because I am such a procrastinator. I really want to do good in my other classes but I can never start studying earlier but wait till the last minute. I am happy for you that you've actually leaned from your failure and hopefully you will do well in your other classes.
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